Research for the novel Hudson:
A New Novel from Roxane Gay, Hunger
from The New Yorker:
Gay also used the platform (Tumblr) to discuss the culture’s punishing relationship with aspects of her own identity: fatness, bisexuality, and blackness. She wrote about the murder of Jordan Davis and, powerfully, about her rape at the age of twelve.
It is curious to be reminded, in Gay’s new memoir, “Hunger,” that she was first drawn to online forums by the promise of anonymity. The memoir deals with her rape, her overeating, and her struggles with her public and private identities. Before the dawn of avatars, she lived on IRC, “an old-school chat program with thousands of channels populated by thousands of lonely people who were mostly interested in talking dirty to one another.” The memory contrasts with the tone of the book, in which Gay is constantly defining and defending herself against others’ expectations. Increasingly, she has become not just a writer but a spokesperson. Gay, who rejects the ideal of “(th)inner woman” while also wishing that she could herself be smaller, has drawn the ire of fat-acceptance advocates, who presumably wish that Gay were a less equivocal role model. In “Hunger,” she writes candidly of her position, returning to the theme of contradictions: “I have been accused of being full of self-loathing and being fat-phobic. There is truth to the former accusation and I reject the latter. I do, however, live in a world where the open hatred of fat people is vigorously tolerated and encouraged. I am a product of my environment.”